July 10, 2012

Pondering the Ocean

Fate has delivered us an immutable roadblock.  I can sit here for the rest of my days and stew over why I cannot have the life I had anticipated, or I can detour and find a new way, even prosper by so doing.  It is a choice; switch of perspective.  You can feel like a “whack a mole game” or you can decide to feel like a blade that is being honed to strike for good.

Morgan, your death has caused me to strengthen my spiritual struts, to reaffirm my thoughts and cognition. This hideous murder has forced us to change.  We attempt to use the loss and pain to break through and awaken.  I am learning how to deal with this sad, messy, unsanitized life. Love it all.  That is the difficult but necessary response.

Relinquish old expectations, secure in the belief that love always shows up.  Pain can serve as a vehicle that allows for love’s transformation.  I see the lesson in the sandy beach of the Outerbanks.  The beautiful sand and undulating dunes are actually a compilation of massive destruction. So many individual shells pummeled and pounded until at some point they no longer resemble conch, clam or scallop but leave behind a singular identity and become beach. A mysterious process as redemption follows demolition.  I accept the lesson; even in the face of the ultimate challenge of your hideous death, Morgan. Life, growth and love are coming around again.

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Love Mama

13 Responses to “Gil Harrington’s Thoughts from July 10, 2012”

  1. Cory says:

    Gil,
    Your message rings loud and clear for many of us, whatever life may brings us. Your courage ,strength, and insights remind us that love is the most important thing. Thank you for being such an amazing woman and family and for sharing your thoughts and deepest feelings. Maybe one day you will put these in a book honoring Morgan, giving a perspective that only you as a mother could give.
    Peace, love, and prayers always, Cory 241

  2. Roberta says:

    Peace be with you.

  3. karen says:

    In the end it is spiritual evolution that we strive for. Your life is now full of what you need and less of what you want. Fate does not have you at a roadblock but instead on just the right path because you are evolving-something that may have otherwise never happened and is reflected in your comment, “Morgan, your death has caused me to strengthen my spiritual struts, to reaffirm my thoughts and cognition.” Maybe it is the journey you are on now that is necessary and maybe, just maybe, this is Morgan’s gift to you.

  4. Ann H Tearle says:

    Still thinking of you and Morgan–i’ve never lost sight of you and her. My prayers for your comfort and strength and courage to soldier on, continue daily. Yes, “I’ll have my breakdown after i take this load of laundry out.” How incredible you are, Mamma Bear:)Love, Annie

  5. Noel says:

    Mrs Harrington

    I thought I would drop you a line as a programme on Investigations was shown on TV in the England yesterday it was all about your beautiful Daughter Morgan.

    I just wanted to pass on my sincere condolences and hope that sometime soon the person responsible for her death is caught someone somewhere must know somthing about who this person could be.I am certain though that they will ultimately face the wrath of God I lost my daughter Emma 17, 6 years ago suddenly after being admitted to hospital for an illness she was my only child and whilst this cannot in anyway compare with the circumstances in which you lost Morgan I do find alot of comfort knowing that I will at sometime in the future God willing be with her again.

    God Bless you and your Family

    Kind Regards

    Noel

  6. Jill says:

    You may never realize how your words touch our lives in so many different ways. Speaking for myself, my struggles in life are great, but nothing as great as the loss of a daughter – but, I am ever so grateful that there is someone out there who truly “gets it”, who gets right to the heart of the matter, who uses her words to change lives and help heal hurting hearts – that person is you, Mrs. Harrington! Thank you for being you! I pray for you and I pray that someday really soon whomever is responsible for stealing the joy of your life is brought to justice. I pray for comfort for you and your family.

  7. jan mason says:

    I still grieve for my daughter who was murdered by drugs almost 2 years ago. Your thoughts are so profound and express what I feel but can’t put into words. I do hope you will write a book some day about this lonely journey you are on…I know it will help so many people, as it has helped me. Thank you.

  8. jennifer says:

    i have just heard about the tragic loss of your precious daughter Morgan on the tv show the dissapeared …i am going to pray day and night for your loss and for the monster who still walks amongst us to be brought to justice….it is so unfair that such beauty is ripped from the world and is devastating to say the least. most if all i want to say that i do believe Morgan lives on in spirit and i pray for her peace and hugs to extend down to you from her place in heaven…the world mourns with you and i want you to know how sorry we are from our family to yours…may the lords peace be with your family and may Morgans light shine on eternal. God Bless…

  9. Florence Nickerson says:

    Today…I heard you, Today you entered my life. Your family, all of them, impacted my safe little world. I have four daughters, very similar in spirt, very similar in passion. I cannot understand what you live with but I can pass on our prayers and tell you…I heard you today. I will take with me your words and the depth of love you have and pass that on, experience it. Explaining, attempting to mimic your eleoquent words, to my own, what unconditional…never ending, deep, forever love means.

  10. Alexandra says:

    Gil, I know nothing with take away the pain that you and your family feel but you should know that Morgan has not and will not be forgotten. I never met Morgan but I think about her almost everyday and pray that your hearts have healed. I hope that one day you will have the answers you search for and your mind can rest and justice will be served.

  11. Pippi says:

    Thinking of Morgan today! Gone but certainly never forgotten.

    I come here often hoping there will be some news.

  12. Maureen says:

    So sorry for the loss of such a beautiful girl! I am watching Investigation on ID about Morgans story… I have a question, How is it that she left with her purse that did not have her keys in that purse? who the heck had them and WHY IN THE WORLD would she ask someone else to hold on to them when clearly she had a place to put them? Anyone see her and her “friends” sitting in the seats at the concert? If not…. take another look at those friends, maybe? Just saying…
    Best of luck to the family, God Bless

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