Dear Morgan,

We know now that we will survive, but still have to figure out how to actually live and flourish post you. The means is literally at hand. I got your gold signet ring back from the Virginia State Police recently.

We all have the same ring and choose to wear this family emblem frequently. I am finding myself changed by wearing your ring. My
visceral response to it has surprised me a bit. It/you elevates me
through out my day.

I see the flash of gold on my hand as I rinse out a tea cup and I pray “Please Morgan, help me see things more clearly.” I smile to realize that I now pray to you rather than for you, knowing you are beyond all pain and harm, – angelic now.

Reading in my spot on the couch I turn a page and feel the unaccustomed weight of your ring. I am reminded to give thanks for this day, for the sweet light pressure of Kirby’s doggy chin on my leg. Blessing.

Wearing your ring, the one you were wearing when you were beaten, and your heart stopped beating, is my sacred honor and duty. The beauty of it, the pain of it continues to open me and whisper its teaching. I promise to listen so carefully and to stop grasping worry and fear and constructing barriers to wisdom. Hoping that acceptance and understanding will arrive eventually, I hear, learn, and choose to let the negative slip aside and instead allow growth to have its way – untethered.
Always and always,

9 Responses to “Gil Harrington’s Thoughts from June 16, 2014”

  1. Gina Susek says:

    I was afraid to come here over “Father’s Day” weekend which is really every day. I know that your pain, as parents and brother, can be unbearable at times and did not know what I would read this time. I am so happy that you have received Morgan’s ring back which is now so physically close to you. You can contemplate her with just a glance at your hand and that must be a great comfort. I saw Morgan’s story on the “ID” program last week. Hopefully, we are all getting closer to finding this monster. I had her candle lit all week in her remembrance and yours.

  2. Ligia says:

    Checking in on you today…..letting you know I am thinking of you and your family. Know that Morgan will never be forgotten by so many that never knew her. Know that there are so many of us praying for peace and comfort in your family and also for justice. God’s blessings upon you and yours.

  3. SandyEggo says:

    Hoping there is some connection with the Hannah Graham case so that the monster who stole Morgan’s future may finally be brought to justice…the fact that the suspect in Hannah’s case drove a taxi from ’07-’10 definitely piques my interest in him.

    Sending good thoughts and vibes to your family now and always… 241

  4. Gina says:

    This is it, I am surer than sure of it being Jessie. I guess that one can trust no one. I always told my daughter to keep $20 in her wallet for a cab should she ever need it when she was in college. How grim the prospect that it is just the luck of the draw or maybe it is true that the time and of our death is written in the Big Book. I would like to believe that instead of living in fear all of the time. I think all of people’s prayers made this happen. You are still in my thoughts and prayers.

  5. Ligia says:

    Thinking about you and yours today….praying for justice and peace. God bless you all.

  6. Abigail says:

    Thinking about you and I want you to know how amazed I am at how you have handled this for the past five years. I don’t even want to begin to imagine if Morgan was my girl. You have been amazing, gracious and calm. The work you have poured yourself into in Morgans memory is outstanding. I am looking into getting a chapter of your “Help Save the Next Girl” active in Richmond. Don’t know how much I can do, but I will try! Take care. You are absolutely amazing!

  7. Sarah says:

    Well as we’ve been waiting I’ve often wondered if he’ll ever be caught. And it now appears he has. My question would be, the girl he attacked at college, why did she not follow through with pressing charges? What is happening to the women in our society when they cannot pursue justice against someone who took from them? At any rate, still standing by, love and blessings to your family.

  8. Ann H Tearle says:

    Still and always thinking of Morgan and you all with my daily prayers and love. If the DNA matches Morgan’s as in Hannah’s case–then this perp will be taken off the streets forever (I pray. All too sad. I believe Morgan thought she was getting into a cab, a supposedly ‘safe’ cab. May she RIP and know that she is watching over you all–and doesn’t want you to rush the process of being with her again one day. It will come all too soon:) Love and prayers continue for you and your dear family. Annie

  9. Gina says:

    A quiet rainy day here today. Morgan’s candle with its new batteries is making such a comforting glow where it resides. Thank you for being there for all of the others who must go through what must be a raw, unending grief. Prayers for all of you.

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