All 3 of us are struggling. We know Morgan is dead as we have peered into her empty eye sockets and felt the rough dry edges of her ribs. Despite those stark memories, little wisps of fantasy or denial persist. A tiny part of me feels as if the last 8! months have been a giant farce, a macabre game of hide and seek. This can’t be real. If I count to ten on base and say “All in come free, free, free” Morgan will materialize from some ingenious hiding place and life will go back to normal. 

I know that won’t happen though, can’t happen. There is no going back. But I’m not loving the new normal. It’s too hard, so II don’t really want to move forward. I’m just stuck. What to do? I hope that time works its magic and things sort themselves out somehow. I pray for the peace to accept the unfathomable reality that someone could actually kill our Morgan. 

I wish it was me.

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2 Responses to “Gil Harrington’s thoughts from June 16th, 2010”

  1. Ann H Tearle says:

    I hear you, Gil. I know you wish it was you. How in the world could anyone kill Morgan? It is so unbelievable–she’ll walk through the door in a moment…..I can’t grasp it either. My prayers continue….Love, Ann

  2. sandra says:

    I know any parent wished it was them…..I don’t understand the evil that lurks sometimes hidden behind a face we would trust. As a parent the most precious thing is a child. I watch the news and cannot understand how someone can take a life and feel no remorse….and sometimes it’s even the parent that murders their own child. Makes me sick! Makes me so mad that someone would take Morgans life and never feel the pain you and your family are feeling. I feel this person is one of those hidden behind a face that is trusting, caring and kind BUT is so evil those around him would be suprised. EVIL! I have to believe justice will be served. Someone know something..someone saw something….please come forward.

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