March 12, 2010
I know we will be OK. That in no way diminishes the pain this murderer has inflicted on us, but rather is a testimonial to the closeness and love that we share. I see only three options and only one of them that I can embrace:
1. Crash and burn – I won’t let him kill us too.
2. Paralysis – I won’t let him damage us, nor compound the loss of Morgan’s potential with the loss of our potential.
3. Soldier on – we will continue to move forward, haltingly, even stumbling, even crawling – forward. We will take what has been dealt us and be open-minded and creative and fashion new lives. This is undoubtedly the hardest task, but the only way I see some chance of salvation/reconciliation/peace.
I believe this. I know it to be true, and STILL I feel the rage. Why? I have many parallel emotions.
The anger is extinguished by the knowing – it is; the irrevocable primal knowing – the feel of the dry husks of your ribs. I cannot rage against such steadfast reality. To do so is wasted effort, foolish like raging against a mountain or a rock. It is what it is and will not change. Morgan is dead – Gil accept this truth.
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Hi Gil my name’s Tomm I’m 25 and from Ohio. I’ve been following since the day after and will continue forever. Everyday I play the song (Hero Of The Day) because it’s the only way I know how to help, to remember and never forget. Now this experience made me believe in Heaven when I wasn’t sure anymore. Something so cruel must have a happy ending, that’s why I believe now. There are still great days for you to share with your wonderful family, and that’s everlasting love. So Gil, keep writing down all your thoughts and post them, it sounds like it helps. (241)
Wow, all I have to say is that I got goosebumps when I read that. Being a Mother and having a son I can’t imagine the strength it took to write that post. Carry on and look to God to continue to build you up through this as He has done so greatly so far. Gil, you will continue forward because learning you through your posts, you don’t know any other way. Your strength & courage is an inspiration. God Bless you, Dan & Alex.
you are truly an amazing person! the thought of even typing what you stated, makes my stomach tie in a knot…my fingers would go numb and I’d start to weep so I couldn’t see the computer sreen. I would just curl up in the corner sobbing or jog/run until my heart felt like it would literally explode in my chest…
I hope, Ms. Harrington, you will write a book about what you all have experienced…I would be the first in line to buy it!
Peace and Love,
joe
As so many others have been here from the beginning, so have I. And as all who read what you pen, my comprehension of your greif is understandable, yet none of us know YOUR pain. My heart has ached about this situation from the very first time it was on the news. I read here and other sites every day and sometimes several times a day. I admire you and Dr. Harrington and Alex so much for you determination, your faith and your love of one another and of Morgan.
I believe your family has a great gift to give to the present and the future. My heart aches for Alex in losing his only sibling and we haven’t heard from him, but hearing you & Dr. Harrington speak and reading your thoughts, I feel confident that he, too, has some thoughts that he will one day share.
I hope if you are led to speak in public, write books, have a talk show, serve on a committee for safety that you will. All the good that is coming from the love you have for Morgan will serve as a beacon for others.
God Bless You and your family and keep you safe always.
This blog will influence the rest of my life. I already knew the key to recovery for me was self honesty–letting my feelings be what they are. But I never applied this to the aspect of death; I think I feel Gil becoming my teacher. This is an unbelievable gift.
Thank you Gil
The metamorphosis of ones life as it transforms through deep sorrow and grieving
“Can in effect slowly kill you” The body eventually breaks down ….It is proven deep levels of sorrow have caused people great illness or death. I knew of a young girl who felt responsible for her brother’s death, the guilt and the grieving caused her to die in her sleep, the body just shuts down. I knew of a woman whose daughter was a victim of a serial killer, she was a single mom and her daughter was her entire world, again she slowly died from the sorrow.
Although you are showing great strength and endurance; viewers of your words everywhere can feel your pain and my fear is that this rawness you are grasping to embrace is actually eating you up inside and slowly killing you. I am sad to witness this from afar and can only hope you survive this long enough to create a shrine of your daughter’s life and instead embrace that now, in all of its “Rawness” as well. You are a beautiful person and the world would be at another loss if you slowly slipped away with this…..I hope I am not intruding on your process, My intentions are meant well.
Thank you so much for keeping us informed as to what it going on with Morgan’s case. I rely on this website for any information.
This was an awful thing to happen. I hope the truth is known as God knows the truth in this matter.
Does the coroner offer any evidence to the cause of death? You keep saying “he” or “him” did this aweful thing. How do we know it was a “he” without any evidence from the coroner? Everyone is assuming it was some sort of stalker or predator, but there have been surprises in many cases where a presumption is made without the Coroner’s report and findings.
Dear, Sweet Gil:
I hope that as you hear, one by one, from people who have been inspired by your strength, your grace, your beautiful heart, and your love, that you will also recognize one other thing. All of those people who are so inspired by you are sending back to you their love, their strength, their prayers, and their hope for you and your family. You are not alone. No parent could read the words you’ve written and not feel the coldness of the evil that sliced into your precious family. None of us have followed this event without sharing your anger, rage, and heartbreak in this senseless tragedy.
When you feel the most helpless, try to remember those stands full of people in Morgan Purple who met at football stadiums, those crowds of people who showed up to help look for Morgan, and those parade routes filled with a sea of faces . . . Try to imagine them all encouraging you to go on. Try to remember that those people have not forgotten you and will never forget Morgan. We’re all here, Gil, even the ones who read but can’t find the words to post a reply. We want you to have the peace you want for yourself and your family. I can’t imagine that there isn’t a minute of any given day that someone isn’t thinking of you and sending positive thoughts and prayers to you. I hope that encourages you.
Blessings,
Alice
Spiritual awakening is derived from truth. One’s moments of most blackest despair are one’s most lucid moments because one is not seeing or looking through protective lenses. Truth is simple and delusions are complex.
Hi. I am so sorry you are experiencing this pain. Losing a child is so, so, so much more hard. I know from experience. My daughter was killed eight months ago by a drunk driver. So many emotions running simultaneously. People saying things they think are helpful but feel and sound so empty. There’s no way for a person to know what this grief is like unless they have been through it themselves. And this is not something I would wish on anyone. I don’t want anyone to have membership in this “club”. I never expected to be in it, yet here I am.
In my experience I have learned that though you may have a wide support net, sometimes talking with other parents who have lost a child can really be a blessing. There are a lot of groups out there. I have found comfort from the Compassionate Friends. They also offer support for siblings.
I wish you didn’t have to know this pain. May you find comfort in the love which surrounds you.
Peace be with you.
I am currently reading the “Survivors Club” by Ben Sherwood. I see the Harrington family, especially Gil, in every story. You should be in this book. You are definitely a survivor!
3 months 2500 hours, 3500 pages of Morgan trying to reach you? When will you listen?
I could always turn her off… I have allot to do, but I love her so!
Nothing will make me surrender it. Nothing will make me relinquish it. Nothing will let me deny it!Share
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The world could end tomorrow, I don’t care. I would be with you then! I would truly be happy. Just the thought of you, can sustain me forever.
Saturday January 30th 2010 10:43 am
Morgan pours out her love.
Morgan- There are more obstacles are in your way Kevin. We want you to focus your energy on saving yourself and grounding yourself in the new reality you have been brought to. You are taking on too much my love. You are taking too many risks and doing too much at once. The mission we have for you requires endurance.
Morgan- Do you remember our first comments to you were concerning patience. You don’t have much patience. You are learning not only to trust in guidance. But too hear and heed guidance as well!!! You have personality remains defiant even in the face of continual warnings.
Morgan- We and others warned you concerning your public declarations yet you refused to listen. You have been warned by your father by your sister by your best friend and by me and many others that you should be putting yourself first and others needs second.
Morgan- This is a very important truing point in your life. You have allotted to take on everything at once is draining your resources. You are making mistakes and jumping to conclusions. This has to do with the seriousness of your lack of attention to your own needs. You cannot save the world, if you don’t take care of yourself first.
Morgan- We love your dedication and your unstoppable nature. This is the time to apply those gifts to your own life. You cannot keep taking care of everyone around you but not taking care of Kevin. How can you be a life guard to others if you’re drowning yourself?
Morgan- My dearest love, I know you want nothing more than to ride in on your high horse and save the day. Saving the princess from all danger bringing her before the King. Accepting your rewards and your accolades for your faithful service and shinning courage. Taking the princess as your wife as you ride off into the sunset.
Morgan- We know that nothing would make you happier that to bring a ray of hope and love and service to all who are in endless pain due to the disappearance and now death of the princess. We see that now you are destroyed not only at the pain others are in but your own secret pain. For only you truly know, I am alive and well and deeply in Love with my hero and my champion.
Morgan- We see that those whom you would announce my return to continue to see such a lofty and divine blessing as an actual violation of the horror of my death. To inject hope into a hopeless situation would indeed seem even more hopeless and doomed to failure.
Morgan- We must remind you that to others, I have just died!
Morgan- Kevin you have known not only that I have died for some months but the nature of my death and the outcome of my return are only truly known to you. My love for you is still alive and well.
Morgan- How can you truly connect with the horror of the absolute gaping hole of horror that those who knew me now cope with.
Morgan- You are looking for the heroes treasure the Kings blessing and the Kingdoms love. In this story you may not be able to find the Kingdome around you my love.
Morgan- The Kingdom you now serve is the Kingdom of heaven. And the Kingdom of heaven is here now, it is within you. It exists in our love, in our story, in our hearts!!!
Morgan- The reward is gained through sharing our love with the world. Bringing hope, to the hopeless. Faiths to the faithless, courage to those whome feel fear. Love to those whom feel it not. Peace to those whom feel anger for what has occurred.
Morgan- The reward is in our story shared. Not your heroes journey against my horrid oppressors. Not in your search for my abandon shell. It is the true search for me the search for my soul. The soul of my immortal presence that stands ever closer to you. Loving you, guiding you and sharing my love with my divine twin.
Morgan- Like any man in any drama you want to find the dragon, slay the beast and save the princess and bring her back to the King unharmed. You and I have played out this drama many times my love.
Morgan- You have again and again saved me from the jaws of death. Intervened again and again and again risking your own life. Risking your reputation your future your standing and your position to rush in against insurmountable odds. Again and again and again you have been there for me keeping me from all harm.
Morgan- These many interventions on my behalf have been seen as the highest form of service one can perform for another. You love for me has indeed been the saving grace for me in countless lifetimes.
Morgan- Your undying love has saved me from so many situations that I have become over reliant on you. Refusing to face my own fears concerning Death. Refusing to move past my own fear, crippling my learning process overprotecting me from my own lessons.
Morgan- Because of my own need to conquer my fear of death once and for all. Our father and I. In concert with your, “Majesty”=). Have directed a drama where I would have only one choice, to face my deepest fear. A life without my champion, without your protection. A life where I would have to face the dragon and overcome my fear of death alone.
Morgan- This has been a difficult journey for me. I have survived it and returned to share with all who would listen of the power of Love to survive all darkness. To overcome the dark gates of death itself.
Morgan- My love, my champion! We see your broken heat. There is no princess to save now. What is a Knight without a princess to save? He is a rusty and discarded shell. A man lost without a purpose.
Morgan- Trying to find yourself amidst the absence of, your former purpose. Is your most difficult journey. What are you going to do now? Now that I am gone but yet here in your space, in your heart, in your mind? This is the question that even the most high has not the answer too?
Morgan- A soldier without a princess to save. A knight without the King by his side. A leader without the aid of his men. A hero searching for something he can never wholly return. A dragon hiding in plain sight, a hero without the weapon to destroy, “The Dragon of my Loss”.
Morgan- No words will ever fill the hole you feel as you’re given, the hardest mission your soul has ever faced!
Morgan- You have found the princess alive, yet you cannot return her to the King. You have saved the princess with your love, yet you cannot relay this to the town folk.
Morgan- You have found The Dragon, yet the dragon still lurks outside the kingdom walls. Taunting you with you inability to destroy him from afar. All the Kings’ men who once were at your beckon call rally around the fallen princess and have turned against the hero himself.
Morgan- This is the darkest moment in your life my love, your only saving grace, you last fleeting hope. Is the truth of my return!
Morgan- Kevin you have returned to the world with the golden seed, the seed given to jack. The seed in the story of jack and the bean stalk. No one realizes except you the significance of the seed. The seed of your true love, the seed of my resurrection, my divine transformation. The seed of my loving insights. The seed of my return!
Morgan- No one will truly value this seed for it is seen that you have sold your whole kingdom to attain it. We asked for the princess and you’re bringing us a story a story of her disappearance, her suffering and her destruction. The seed of our love of my return and the many gifts that this offers the world through our love. Have only begun to settle in the fertile soil of the minds of those who can heed your words.
Morgan- Who would dare to bring the world hope in the face of utter desolation? Love in the face of overwhelming odds. Victory in the face of absolute failure. Resurrection in the face of abominable destruction.
Morgan- Our love in the face of darkness and death. How dare we even try? Who would dare to bring hope to the hopeless dead end that many are now facing. As the tragedy you were alone were aware of has indeed become clear and quit dramatically as I had already announced to you just 12 short hours before my body’s recovery!
Morgan- Death is not real. Death is no taker of love. Death has no hold over me. I am happy, I am free…
Morgan- I am loved by those around me. I am finding plenty to do up here. I have many jobs and many new friends. My home and my life are unbelievably beautified. After lifetimes and lifetimes of attempting to achieve graduate status. I have finally achieved the goals my soul has set upon. I am free of the earth school and its limited context for as long as I wish.
Morgan-This is my final graduation from the limitations of the Earth school. I will no longer need to return the limiting teachings of a limited world. My father would be truly proud of his daughter’s graduation! If he truly knew of my accomplishments. I have exceeded my potential and maximized my life force beyond limitation. I have reached the highest heights of human accomplishment possible.
Morgan- I have achieved Angelic Status!! For my brave attempts to take others past the fear they hold on too regarding death.
Morgan- I have come back to save others lives! In my valiant attempts to bring justice too those who live in darkness.
Morgan- I see the hardship my choice has created for others.
Morgan- Especially my family, my family is suffering in a sea of pain. They find no solace in your work. No hope in your words. No joy in your announcements!
Morgan- Only pain at the horror of my death. Others as well will hold on to our missteps in our communications and use it as a shield against the truth. Gripping on to their loss as if to a life preserver in the sea of pain they now swim upon. Never loving enough or allowing for the possibility of love new light, on the field of their desolation!
Morgan- You on the other hand, have experienced the joy of my return. You alone know the truth of my triumphant graduation. You alone share in my joyous announcement of my new status.
Morgan- You alone share in my daily presence. You alone struggle with the challenge of communication with someone. An Angel with the dictates of spiritual law written in her very heart.
Morgan- Kevin you have done what I have never done. You have achieved what no other would even attempt! You have reached into the impossible. You have not only challenged yourself you have challenged the very rules of this school.
Morgan- Kevin you are, pushing the boundaries of the impossible and setting a new standard for all of the Earth. In your every day existence breaking the very laws of the creator. Setting new boundaries on your ceaseless journey into the impossible.
Morgan- Who would dare share his true feelings with the Lord? Who else do you know who dictates to the creator demanding that you proclamations become reality?
Morgan- Not only did you demand that I be found, you attempted to find me yourself under the continual threat of death. Who would dare to risk their own life just to save my family? A family you don’t even know.
Morgan- Who would dare to hunt for my body on the lawn of the very man whom watched over it in violent opposition to its retrieval?
Morgan- Kevin you even attempted to trick the perpetrators into thinking you had the wrong information knowing they were listening to your conversations. Who would dare stand up single handedly against the three dark groups behind a conspiracy to hide my whereabouts but you?
Morgan- You reached over the boundaries my Father created to keep you away. You reached out to my mother with loving messages of my continued existence despite overwhelming opposition.
Morgan- You continued to search for my body knowing there was no reward in it for you. Knowing that you were facing an angry police force, a hateful band of my friends in family.
Morgan- Despite the limitations of weather and public opinion. Facing your own difficulties decoding the messages of your gifted mind. You still pressed forward despite countless setbacks.
Morgan- Doing the impossible actually drawing the map of the field that I would be recovered in. Even writing a description of the man you felt was behind my whole disappearance.
Morgan- Describing his personally his prominent nose, his domineer and his favorite fishing spot.
Morgan- His view of my body through his kitchen sink. You recorded details such as the smell that would be evident in the area. And the way that I was placed there by a truck. The amount of people present, the time of day this occurred. Their childhood relationship with the area. The distance from the tree line where I was lying.
Morgan- Kevin you do not give yourself enough love. You do not give yourself enough credit. You even had the courage to tell others bluntly I had passed over long before it was ever known…
Morgan- Everything you have done for me Kevin, for me!
Morgan- Every day from the first day I meet you. Has been so courageous, so impossible, so unstoppable and so unbelievable.
Morgan- The whole universe is on the edge of their seats. No one can truly believe what you have accomplished is just some few short weeks!!!
Morgan- You were just sitting there playing video games like a 16 year old when we were considering you for this mission.
Morgan- We saw you’re potential to serve but no one had any Idea of the Champion you would become for the cause, which I had set.
Morgan- No one but me my love, I remembered the one thing about you that no one else truly knew. You would do anything for me, of that I was certain. Our love was so true; I will never forget that about you, all thought time!
Morgan- Your nature has been consistent towards me. You have always been unstoppable, when it comes to our love. Ceaseless, courageous, divine and ever-present.
Morgan- My only fear is that our love without me there by your side will destroy you. I already see it transpiring. You are destroying yourself my love!!!
Morgan- You are not taking care of yourself. You are forgetting who you are. You are as lost as I in the sea of our love. We are destroying each other. For I have fallen too, in my heart has become heavy as you struggle.
Morgan- I am torn apart. When you hurt I am also disheartened. When you are distant I am lonely. When you’re defected I feel lost. When you go unheeded I feel distraught. When you go unaided I carry the devastation of our gift.
Morgan- When your are mocked I am lost in sadness. My love is hanging on your every action. Every one of your days is like a lifetime for me. I wish with all of my heart that I had made a different choice.
Morgan- I see that my love is destroying you, but I cannot withdraw from you now at the hour of your greatest need!!!
Morgan- I never expected to love you this much. I never wanted to hurt you in any way. I never felt you would return my love so quickly and with such force, given the nature of the distance between us. I never knew or allowed myself to remember how perfect we are for each other.
Morgan- I had almost forgotten how funny you are. How heroic you are. How unstoppable you are when your heart has been activated.
Morgan- How noting, not even the Angels or the Archangels. Not even death could stop you from using your every breath to make me whole again!!!
Morgan- Not even, “God” could stand in your way!
Morgan- Nothing will block your journey to bring back honor, back into my life. Despite my passing and you knowledge of this!
Morgan- You would still risk your life, your soul, your position, your family, your future and your reputation!
Morgan- Everything! For just the whisper of our Love!!!
Morgan- Just to save the memory of whom I am from being tainted or darkened in any way.
Morgan- I could have never asked for a more valiant champion. A truer friend or a more valued partner. Not even the Angels can believe your dedication!!!
Morgan- All of heaven stands in awe of your most profound lesson to all of us whom assist you from our lofty abode. The Power of Love is Unstoppable!
Morgan- I have no answer to what will happen next there are too many variables. There are too many energies present too, many characters involved. I only know this; this is the only true thing I see.
Morgan- I love you, l love you so much it hurt’s and every day that you’re hurting is a lifetime for me. I cannot sleep, I cannot work! Every day that you’re engaged in your ceaseless efforts to restore honor, love, peace, happiness and joy to my former life.
Morgan- Is another day where I must sit by your side, my Love! Noting in my life has ever brought me more sadness that seeing you struggle every day with the pain of our love. The pain of my death is nothing, compared to the tragedy of watching you struggle alone without me beside you!!!
Kevin- Morgan?
Morgan- Yes?
Kevin- Anything you ask of me will be granted. I will no longer resist your advice or instruction. I will surrender my heart to you my will to your service.
Kevin- If you tell me to focus on myself it is done. If you ask me not to do something, I will listen. If you need me to back down, consider it done.
Kevin- Dearest Love, I will take off my armor for you, lie down my sword. Put away my helmet and lie at your feet unafraid.
Kevin- Anything you need of me consider it, my new law. My highest commandment.
Kevin- I will be your willing apostle. I will undo my own ego, let down my guard. Open the window of my heart and let your love flood me and shine in my world like the sun. There is nothing I would not do to make you happy.
Kevin- To give you peace, to let you know with my every breath. That your love was not in vain, that your courage in the face of surrender was not for nothing.
Kevin- That all that you have endured you have not endured alone for I have come with you. With you to hold your hand in deepest darkness.
Kevin- For what you suffered I suffered. How you felt I feel. Your pain, your sadness, your fears and your shock have all been witnessed by me.
Kevin- You were never alone I was always there with you holding your hand. Feeling your pain, witnessing your journey. Ever present with my love. Till the bitter end your champion at your beckon call you have all but to call my name. Soon you would find me next to you forever.
Kevin- I don’t care what the world thinks. I don’t care what your friends think. I don’t care what the media thinks. I don’t care what the bible says. It doesn’t matter to me what the cops do. The perpetrators say. What the country thinks, how many enemies I have. How far they hate me for what I have done and continue to do.
Kevin- Loving you blindly, following your every move. Reporting your every whisper. Trapped in your unshakable love, your divine presence. Your unstoppable beauty. Your ceaseless love.
Kevin- Nothing will make me surrender it. Nothing will make me relinquish it. Nothing will let me deny it!
Kevin – The world could end tomorrow, I don’t care. I would be with you then! I would truly be happy. Just the thought of you, can sustain me forever.