As big as the to-do list is makes it easier to go and bury yourself there than face the immensity of Morgan’s murder.  We have worked phenomenally hard for this entire first year to find JUSTICE FOR MORGAN and at the same time to distract ourselves from the wasteland of loss and sadness that constantly threatens to overwhelm.

I think it is time for us to gear down our busyness and let the grief do its work; to shape us and open us through suffering.  These are natural rhythms, which must be allowed to express; to resist is futile and tiring. A year of holding back the tide has proven that.

 I do believe that the intrinsic direction of life is towards wholeness and healing; you can’t get lost or stuck in the broken places.  Faith is the certainty that if you hold on long enough you can participate in renewal.  You can choose to grow and become more because of your loss and reject its destructive potential. I saw this done elegantly by Susan J. on the bridge for Morgan’s memorial dedication in Charlottesville on October 17, 2010.

Susan had avoided Charlottesville entirely since her beloved husband died there some years ago; the pain was too great.  But Susan had been forged into a new stuff by grief; she leaned into her pain and found strength to stand and offer her compassion to lessen our hurt.  I saw her standing there holding a big old sign “JUSTICE FOR MORGAN” with courage and love just pouring out of her.

I am learning from master teachers all around, this is the way.

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7 Responses to “Gil Harrington’s thoughts from November 1st, 2010”

  1. Cory says:

    Gil,
    Thank you for your writings,Morgan and you are teaching many of us
    out here as well, it is working both ways.Remembering to be more compassionate and patient and never hesitate to say I love you. Most of all not to take others for granted as life can change in the blink of an eye.Many of us pray daily for Morgans justice, she will not be forgotten and out of great tragedy love will conquer as love is the only way out of fear and hate.Be strong and know you are never alone.241

  2. Michele says:

    Justice for Morgan and all of the Harrington family!

  3. sister3 says:

    I’ve missed your messages. Thank you for posting. You and your family remain in my prayers.

  4. Terry says:

    Gil, I have followed your story and suffering for the past year and grieve for you and your family. I am reading a book that I would recommend to you, “Choosing to See” by Mary Beth Chapman (wife of Christian singer/song writer, Steven Curtis Chapman) because she expresses so many of the same things you do in the tragic loss of her 5 year old daughter. I hope you would find comfort in her words and knowing that you are not alone (or going crazy) in your getting through each day. I pray for your peace, physically, mentally, and spiritually. Take care of yourself and hold on to the One who now holds Morgan until you see her again.

  5. ann says:

    Thinking of you and of your family while “grief is doing its work.”

  6. tcaros says:

    We live in an inherently dangerous world. There are risks associated with everything we do. We will never be free of murderers or evil people. Even if they take away everyone’s’ civil liberties to prevent murder we will always have murderous leaders. Leaders who would like to usurp the law by doing away with civil liberties to justify such changes in our laws. We now have full body scans at airports. Who would have thought that the deaths of 2000+ people in the 9/11 attacks could prompt such a loss of our liberties? We would have fought wars before giving up our civil liberties, but now it just takes some precision meddling to convince people –safety is more important than freedom.

    We teach our kids to be careful and we hope that no harm will come to them as they live their lives. Natalee Holloway’s mother let her daughter go to Aruba with the same advice.
    Have you ever looked at the Metallica lyrics about killing and violence or the satanic symbolism used by them? Did this attract the type of person to commit this awful crime? I’ve often wondered if we are being manipulated into a more controlled society myself.

  7. Ann H Tearle says:

    Thoughts, prayers and love to you Gil and all your family. Ann

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