Grief is not an all or nothing process; like we are ok or we are in despair.  There is a lot of wiggle room, not frank polarity which would be so much simpler.  There are moments we all do well and there are times we fake it like crazy and it is sort of convinces.  The problem is that when you have to do that, fake it, to make our pain tolerable/acceptable to others and self – it is just exhausting.

I am tired of growing, and trying, and following the rough path.  I want it smooth and easy for a bit; we are due.  I am just confounded that this is ours to walk – so damn hard.  Then I remember the journey our daughter took.  Morgan’s path ended with her shattered body strewn in a field and I am shamed by my weakness and my fatigue and I find motivation to soldier on for a little more.  We must find some answers, some justice before we can put this down.

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4 Responses to “Gil Harrington’s thoughts from September 29th, 2010”

  1. Julie says:

    Gil,
    Your words today tear at my heart.
    God bless you and your sweet family.
    If your supporters could take your pain for just one day, we would.
    Please keep writing and expressing that pain, let it keep flowing outwards.
    Gil, Dan and Alex first! We accept you and support you no matter what!

  2. Cynthia Howard says:

    Gil, you and your family are always in my prayers. I always light a candle for Morgan when I attend Mass each week. I pray each day there will be Justice for Morgan soon its long overdue.

  3. Christie says:

    Gil,
    We continue to pray for your family, and that Morgan’s murderer will be apprehended. Morgan has not been forgotten. Justice will come.

  4. God Bless you . I know Morgan is very proud ,as proud as any child could ever be of a family of two parents & a brother who love her so very much.
    Love never dies , it only changes & transforms & at time love causes pain & sorrow . To feel great sorrow one must have held a love as strong as the force of the pain. One day , the pain will not be so intense & overbearing ,& ever-present.
    I know that one day we will all be with our loved ones again & that has given me comfort in the midst of my own grief. I pray you will also be able to find comfort with that .
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